Sometimes I re-read my posts and think "I'm so stupid." Why can't I be more creative and find more subjects-ideas to write about? Why is it that I so often only write when I'm upset in some way?
I'm sick of myself.
Saturday, March 31, 2012
Saturday, March 10, 2012
long, dark night
In the beginning, we both talked about our trust issues. We both agreed that we didn't trust anyone much. But I optimistically thought we would build trust together. In the end though, your trust only diminished in us, in me. And I realized in the last two weeks, that you had no trust or faith in me at all.
I guess that is finally what pushed me completely out of the door. Though you had been trying to push me out for a long time, I kept hoping things would get better. You once said that you were testing me, to see how long I would hold on, or if I would stay no matter what. But a person can't stay in a relationship when there is no belief in love. And then things didn't get better. They only got worse. I'm so sad that it got worse. I miss you so much. But I need someone who will trust me, because for me, that is the basis for long-term love.
I guess that is finally what pushed me completely out of the door. Though you had been trying to push me out for a long time, I kept hoping things would get better. You once said that you were testing me, to see how long I would hold on, or if I would stay no matter what. But a person can't stay in a relationship when there is no belief in love. And then things didn't get better. They only got worse. I'm so sad that it got worse. I miss you so much. But I need someone who will trust me, because for me, that is the basis for long-term love.
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