Happy Valentine's Day - bah humbug!

It doesn't matter if you're the one who left or the one who was left. Ending is never easy. It hurts. For the last two weeks I've been dreaming of her. Some dreams I was mad, but mostly.... I miss her. My arms miss her, my heart..... Even though logically I know we weren't getting along and that for a long time I knew things were unlikely to change.... emotionally I miss all of it, even the fights, but not the insults. I think of her coffee, fires in the backyard ..... I miss the laughing and the closeness we had in the beginning and once in a while toward the end. I will always miss that so very much.